Hello Heart

Hello Heart.
I gave you away today.
Hope you're not mad.
I really do love you a lot,
But I realized I'm not the best for you.
I've placed you in dangerous circumstances.
I let dirty rotten fingers hold you,
And despite my cleanings, you still bear the stains.
Your eyes I've allowed to linger on hope-crushing fantasies.
Your ears have been opened to beauty destroying lies and death filled words.
I became ashamed of you and the tears you brought me.
So I pushed you into dark closets and forgot you there.
I was scared of things you made me feel.
When I finally brought you out into the light once more,
You were hesitant, distant, and very unwilling to trust.
I know things were getting better.
We were working on it...
Our fresh cuts were beginning to look like scars,
And our old scars were beginning to fade.
It's been pretty good for a while now.
I know you may not understand why,
But trust me.
I've seen old habits popping up in me.
I've allowed us to listen to some death words.
I don't want you to go through that again.
This is why I'm giving you away.
He's a good man.
He gave you to me in the first place.
I figure that He'll know what's best for you more than I do.
And better than knowing...
He'll do what's best.
I know it's hard right now,
But we're together with Him.
When He decides to give you away
It'll be the happiest day of our lives.
But trust me till then.
Trust Him.
He knows what's best.
Forgive me for the hurt I've caused you.
I forgive you.
I love you.
That's why I'm doing this.

'till then my beautiful heart,

Bethany