i was with a group guys in one of the dorms... there were a couple other girls but mostly guys. from the other hall comes a group of girls to walk down the stairs. the pretty girl types that dress all nice all the time. the ones that always look cute. a couple of the guys noticed and i just so happened to be in the middle of them. i heard them discuss the fact that they should be in that hall not this one, they wondered aloud why there were here.
i know no harm was meant, but it kinda hurt. It's not that i want these guy's attention, but to know i'm not enough to keep them. to know if they felt they had a choice (or a chance) they would choose others than me and my friend. i know im not some hot chick... dont even think i want to be, but the thought that i dont attract or that im less than desirable is a little painful.
just a lil.
... not just writing to her own beat, but that of the Master.
